Tuesday, April 19, 2016

{Grief Journal} Baby Steps

At the urging of my therapist, I am going to be better at sharing my grief journey. Technically, this isn't exactly what she asked me to do, but I'm a stubborn bitch, and this is my compromise. As time goes on maybe I'll be able to do more.

I have had a lifetime of dealing with grief, but I freely admit that the grief of losing my children is the hardest thing I have had to come to terms with to date. And as I said, I'm a stubborn bitch, so actually going through the steps that I need to go through to heal is exceptionally hard for me.

Today I had a baby step breakthrough. I deleted all of the groups (with the exception of the ones for adoptees such as I) that I joined because of my kids. So, all of the adoption groups, fostering groups, special needs parenting groups...all gone.

This may not seem like a big deal, but similar to how you may go to a parents house and find their lost child's bedroom exactly the same 20 years later, that's sort of been my way of "coping". Just leaving things as is to keep me connected to them.

In reality it just keeps shoving the loss in my face making the process even harder on myself.

I vlogged my feelings about it here: (PLEASE excuse my hot mess self. Didn't even pretend to prep for this video because I wanted to share my raw thoughts.)

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Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Review of "Kink" Documentary

Whips. Chains. Screaming. Dungeons.

Sounds like something from a horror movie, no?

To the folks who work for Kink Studios, it's a typical day at the office.

"Kink", the documentary by Christina Voros and James Franco, delves into pornography from a different perspective than the typical social documentary might.

Kink Studios specialize in just what the name suggests- kink porn.

While one not well informed of the kinky lifestyle may assume this is a male dominated. anti-woman, perhaps even abusive segment of the pornography industry. Well, that person would be wrong.

Kink shows both men and women in submissive roles, and it shows the power in which those in the submissive (meaning the ones being hit, whipped, etc.) role hold in this field. An interview with one actress talked about how empowered she felt to know that she was in full control of the scene and had the ability to start and stop the scene as she needed to.

I think regardless of your opinion on kinky activities or even of pornography, you should check this one out. I found it enlightening, informative, and a refreshing take on an industry that is notorious for exploiting women.

"Kink" is on netflix. :)

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Sunday, April 3, 2016

Blunts at the White House: A Cannabis Revolution


On a beautiful day, April 2nd 2016, hundreds of people gathered in front of the white house. The energy in the air was electric. People were passionate, determined, and fully prepared to be arrested for their cause.

What's the cause, you ask?

De-scheduling cannabis from a schedule one drug.

Cannabis (marijuana) is currently in the same federal drug classification as heroine, while cocaine and methamphetamine are currently classified as schedule two drugs. In order for a drug to be classified as schedule one, it means there is no medicinal use for it whatsoever.

Regardless of the fact that numerous studies have shown the medicinal benefits of cannabis, and many states have legalized or decriminalized cannabis, the federal government has refused to deschedule cannabis, creating a conflict for the state's rights to choose as they will.

Adam Eidinger, founder of DCMJ and DC cannabis activist, organized the "De-schedule 420" rally. The intention was to raise national awareness and urge President Obama to at the very least schedule a meeting with one of the major national cannabis groups. (Such as Norml.)

The thing that made this rally unique is the "smoke in", which was to occur at approximately 4:20pm. During the "smoke in", protesters interested in engaging in civil disobedience were encouraged to peacefully smoke, dab, or consume edible cannabis right in front of the white house.

I wrote about how amazing my first cannabis event in DC was, but the magic of this rally doesn't even come close to being something I can explain.

Walking down the street and witnessing the revolutionary activism that is occurring and to be a physical part of this revolution? There are no words that could describe how amazing it felt.

While I did not participate in the smoke in, I was there to witness it, and provide moral support for those choosing to engage in civil disobedience.

It was anticipated that those engaging would be arrested on spot. (As DC law prohibits cannabis smoking in public.)

Instead, however, something else occurred.

Pictured above are the District of Columbia police walking right through the center of the protesters. 

Not one arrest was made. 

I created a video of the events from the protest, including clips of a few of the speakers. 

To say that the event was a success would be an understatement in my opinion. 

The protest may not have gotten an immediate executive order, but it got national attention. It wasn't just about sparking blunts, it was about sparking change. Sparking a revolution to end the racist war on drugs, to end the criminalization of a plant, to end mass incarceration for non violent cannabis crimes. To take away the power of healthcare from the pharmaceutical companies and give it back to the people to decide what and how they choose to medicate. To take away the stigma that is associated with cannabis and unite people together. 


Following the rally, I was able to attend another local event in DC. The Cake and Ice Cream Party (hosted by Supreme Delights) was a great time! It was personal, private, relaxed, and yet the energy flowing through because of the excitement of the rally was still there. 

Chef Zeke was kind enough to allow me to photograph at the event. 

They are hosting a free edibles class on April 17th! If you are interested in attending and learning some of their amazing skills, please be sure to check it out on Facebook!

Do you have any questions about the rally, cannabis law, or the edibles party? 

As always, leave me some comment love! <3


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